I'm Making Myself a River

I'm making myself a river

a river from my eyes

the river just keeps flowing and flowing

makes me wonder when I'd die

but, I felt I did prefer to die

I prefer dying than losing,

losing the one I love.

I'd rather die a thousand deaths

than live forever without..

I'm making myself a river

The bluest river you'd see

Beneath there are no creatures

for it is gloomy as can be.

For the river, I work overtime

that is, I never stop.

I make it in the morning

I make it in the night

I'm making it while I write.

I never sleep, I never eat, I never even smile.

Laughter is now a foreign word,

comprehension is with doubt.

I'm making myself a river

and secluding myself from everyone.

I'd rather be alone.

Without you, I'd have no one.

The water for the river blurs my vision

I see but circles of different colored lights,

colorful lights, and you.

You are never seen by my my eyes,

my love, you are seen by my heart.

I'm making myself a river

and hopes it reaches you

I'm making myself a river

then ride a boat to you.

~JRamos