Walking Alone

I like walking alone
everything around me disappears
It's as if I'm strolling inside an abstract painting
a colorful world of lines, smudges and squiggles
This way, I get to think
I get to think to myself quietly
The soft breeze touches my skin
and makes me shiver slightly
The warm rays of the sun kiss me

I hate walking alone
everything around me disappears
It's as if I'm strolling inside an abstract painting
with gloomy colors and smudges..just smudges
I'm forced to hear unwanted thoughts
It's quiet, and my thoughts are of you
The cold breeze feels like a knife on my skin
it makes me shiver tremendously
The rays of the sun kiss me

as they do, I close my eyes and I see you
I pretend that the kisses are from you
but then, at the moment I open my eyes
that moment, I see that you're not there
The rays of the sun start to burn me
and I continue walking alone...


I'm Making Myself a River

I'm making myself a river
a river from my eyes
the river just keeps flowing and flowing
makes me wonder when I'd die
but, I felt I did prefer to die
I prefer dying than losing,
losing the one I love.
I'd rather die a thousand deaths
than live forever without..

I'm making myself a river
The bluest river you'd see
Beneath there are no creatures
for it is gloomy as can be.

For the river, I work overtime
that is, I never stop.
I make it in the morning
I make it in the night
I'm making it while I write.

I never sleep, I never eat, I never even smile.
Laughter is now a foreign word,
comprehension is with doubt.

I'm making myself a river
and secluding myself from everyone.
I'd rather be alone.
Without you, I'd have no one.

The water for the river blurs my vision
I see but circles of different colored lights,
colorful lights, and you.
You are never seen by my my eyes,
my love, you are seen by my heart.

I'm making myself a river
and hopes it reaches you
I'm making myself a river
then ride a boat to you.



Like my own photo exhibit ♥

Do you ever get that feeling that you really want to see via the perspective of others? ..that feeling when you want to see using other people's eyes.. just out of plain curiosity. That "I-want-to-know-how-other-people-look-at-the-things-I-see" feeling.. I've had that feeling since I was a child. But of course, I thought it was impossible to see through other people's eyes.. until I actually found a way. I did. Photography. Photos, they’re a way to see what the photographer sees.. They transport you to a different world..their world.. The absolute best photos take us on a journey to realms our eyes may not be able to see without the photographer’s aid..

Before owning my own camera, I used to just sketch whatever I want to take a photo of. Sketching works well too.. but I really wanted my own camera.. soooo I convinced my mom and dad to buy me one using my “supposed to be” tuition payment money (I have a scholarship. I don’t pay for my own tuition.. not a single cent comes from me. Haha.). I convinced mom and dad by using the “I work hard to maintain my scholarship…” lines. :D

They gave me choices… Sony, Nikon or Canon… I really love Nikon… but we all agreed to buy Sony Alpha 290 and two lenses.. Went with it coz I’m just a noobie photographer and the Sony Alpha 290 is an oh-so-user-friendly DSLR… I love it!... Will practice with it and buy other more advanced camera’s when I’m better. J

Oh, and before I go yapping again, this post is actually about my new photo blog! I am loving it sooooo much.. here’s my url: dorkystuffaholic.jux.com J
And here are a few sneek peaks of what I’ve been posting there…

Toodles for now ~ Janine ♥


oh Pixie Cut

I went to my hair stylist at BenchFix today... I asked for a trim... and dun dun dun... I was shocked to see how much shorter my hair became... I don't dislike it. I'm just not used to it being too short... but my hair stylist told me it suited me coz I have a really small face and really petite features. anyway, I think I still need some time to get used to my now-uber-short hair... but I don't think I'd get used to it, coz by the time it gets to my comfort zone, my hair would be longer already. My hair grows extremely fast. haha. :D (I don't have photos of my uber short hair yet. I may post photos, or not. oh my gosh I can't seem to get used to it. :s)

I've actually researched more pixie styles on the internet just to, you know, compare a bit. :))) And, I've decided to post here today some of the pixie cuts I really like.

Rihanna... awesome.

EMMA!! Ever since she cut her hair short, I loved her style even more!

Agyness Deyn... perfect. I love her bone structure soooo much.

Keira Knightley... effortlessly gorgeous.

Twiggy!!!! ♥

Audrey Hepburn. Need I say more? ♥

~Janine ♥


Happy New Year!!! ♥

♪♫♪ What Are You Doing New Year's Eve? :)

Maybe it's much too early in the game
Aah, but I thought I'd ask you just the same
What are you doing New Year's
New Year's Eve?

Wonder whose arms will hold you good and tight
When it's exactly twelve o'clock that night
Welcoming in the New Year
New Year's Eve

Maybe I'm crazy to suppose
I'd ever be the one you chose
Out of a thousand invitations
You received

Aah, but in case I stand one little chance
Here comes the jackpot question in advance:
What are you doing New Year's
New Year's Eve?

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